I can't believe that by Friday, I'll be half way through the program. These past 50 days have gone by in a blink. Sometimes that blink of the eye might contain tears of joy, sometimes of desperation, and others of pain. But that blink of the eye has just reinforced my belief that our time on this Earth goes by so quickly, and Madonna lied, Time doesn't go by so slowly.
This program has really shown me that I can do stuff if I stop listening to the people around me. It's not always easy, especially when those closest to you will say things that can send you in a tailspin.
Most people don't understand how others' words can have such an impact in someone's life. Most people will ask you: Why do you let people affect you like that? Are you that weak? The answer is simple, you're not weak. Trusting those around us, is, I believe, human nature. The desire to have a relationship with the people around you, must be inherent, otherwise we wouldn't have friends, or the desire to have a friend.
I try hard to stick to my business, and not listen, but every so often people develop this desire to help. It's not always helpful when they do. Because they don't measure their words, because they want to keep it real. So I think the quarantine was what I needed. I can talk to people on the phone, but I don't have to receive them in my house, and listen to them for hours on end about my weight or my diet. The fact that I got big, has nothing to do with my diet. It has everything to do with exercise and the proof is in the pudding. I've not changed my diet, and I've gotten results, of course, my diet is pretty clean with the odd cake, and home made cookies. But lack of exercise has taken me to a point where it wasn't just unhealthy but dangerous.
In 47 days I've gone from feeling tired, and being in pain, and having fibromyalgia flare ups, to being less tired, and in less pain. I don't know if I've lost weight, but I've lost inches overall, which is what you really want to see. The fat is disappearing, and my body is being able to do things it couldn't before. And that's all that matters right?
Day One vs Day 40
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